Quality.

"MrPseudonym" (mrpseudonym)
08/10/2016 at 16:45 • Filed to: Change, Personal, Rambling

First off, a picture of a V90 to make this quasi-relevant.

Now, onto the content.

So in reality, beyond the digital ‘life’ I lead, I’m a loud person. I don’t mean that I’m expressive. I mean that I’m physically louder than most people in the room. Sometimes, that’s a good thing. Take, for instance, a loud room you need to silence. I can make myself heard over basically anything.

Sometimes, this is a bad thing. Like when discussing things that need to be heard only by a select group of people. I get louder when I get excited or stressed, or when I’m happy. This year, I’m going to be a junior in high school. It’s interesting; I feel a lot different about many things than I did when I was a sophomore or freshman. But I’m still loud and I still love planes and trains and automobiles alike.

I’ve recently accquired my own computer, so that’s nice. I actively want to get a job to fund my ‘ pseudonym’s irresponsible computer spending account ’, mainly because AMD’s coming out with the Zen CPUs that will support DDR4 RAM, and I want a !!!error: Indecipherable SUB-paragraph formatting!!! so badly. Seriously, I love mATX ‘cube’ cases, but the one that I got was shitty. The buttons are shitty, the panels are shitty, the case wires are shitty, and the motherboard mounts vertically . What the fuck?! Now my GPU’s gonna bend the shit out of the PCI-E port and fuck it all up! On top of that, I want to get a decent headset, !!!error: Indecipherable SUB-paragraph formatting!!! , and a joystick. My mouse is fine.

That was the last Big Thing for me. However, me being me, and that being easily bored, I want something else.

I want to talk less, but make what I say ‘better’ in a way. So that’s the topic: Quality Versus Quantity as Applied to Self-Improvement.

That’s a difficult thing for me. I’m naturally talkative and loud, but I want to make my words more valuable. My speech is a command economy where I control the value of the words I use. I want to be less notable for what I say and more notable for what I do. So the solution is simple: talk less; do more. Get a job. Do community service. Help my family. Hang out with friends. Exercise. Eat better. Make things that are both cool to me and fun to create. Make grades. Etc.

I want to make my life better. I want to sit up in chairs and not give myself a slouch. I want to become a pilot before I turn 20. I want to get rid of a lot of my crap. Maybe it’s just me, and I often find that I’m the only one with the specific problems I have on a day-to-day basis, but I want to make my words matter more. I want to communicate more, but use words less.

I’m just rambling on at this point, but those are my goals. Maybe I should have a plan of action. I’ve made it through life this far by saying ‘fuck it, wing it’, and I think I want to change that as well. Anyways, kinda odd coming back with a sort of personal post, and it’s at a date where we have no idea what’s going on.

TL;DR I have no idea what I’m doing with my life, and I want that to change.

(P.S. If you have one of the yellow Shine 3's that I linked, sell it to me or I’ll come to your house. That, or don’t tell me.)

DISCUSSION (2)

Chris_K_F drives an FR-Slow > MrPseudonym
08/10/2016 at 17:05

TL;DR I have no idea what I’m doing with my life

I’m 28, have a good job making a decent living, drive a cool car that I get to do cool car things in, have met the girl I intend to marry, get to travel a decent amount, own lots of fun toys (gaming PC, mountain bike, etc), and go on lots of adventures (camping out at race tracks for weekend long professional races, learning to drive Ford Model-Ts, building and crewing for LeMons cars, and will be doing a 24 hour go kart race in a couple months).

And you know what? I still get the feeling that I have no idea what I’m actually doing with my life. (To a degree at least). Point is, you’re very young. Hell, I am very young. Don’t sweat it. Most people have no idea what they’re doing with their lives. haha

Chris_K_F drives an FR-Slow > Chris_K_F drives an FR-Slow
08/10/2016 at 17:11

That being said, you have some worthy goals. Work toward them. Just don’t ever think that you’re the only one struggling with stuff, or that any of these problems are going to be that major of a factor in the long run. Think about the big picture whenever you can.

I will say though, that some little things now can make a big difference in the future. If I were able to travel back in time to high school, I’d have studied a lot harder to get into a better college, taken greater advantage of all the resources out there to learn about different opportunities in the world, and participated in more extracurricular activities.